Life Right Now #1

It is funny how your life can change within a second. In one moment you are watching TV, cleaning and not thinking about your future and in the next moment new possibilities are opening up. 

Last week was super busy and stressful and I'm so so sorry I didn't post anything. I just wasn't myself and had to figure out so much stuff regarding my future. It is pretty terrifying to commit, at least it is for me. So at first I want you to know the background story:

I started studying Business Administration in Germany last year but I quickly figured out that it was a really bad idea. I just wasn't interested in my courses and studying for the exams was literally a pain! I knew that I couldn't continue doing something I just didn't enjoy at all. That's why I went back to London. Back home. I just wanted to well... run away, I guess. Before leaving I applied for a different course in Germany, not sure if I would receive a positive answer. 

So, London it was. You can probably tell that I am absolutely happy here, it's just the place to be for me. At this point I didn't really care anymore about going back to Germany. Everything seems to be better here but staying here was "just" Plan B. A rejection of uni would mean a lot of paperwork, moving to a different country and just living a complete different life. I think you can imagine how I felt being caught in the middle. 

August came and I knew the response was on its way. It was weird because in this moment I wasn't thinking at all about the mess. I just wanted to check my phone before going back to work and there it was. A simple email. After a few seconds of hesitation I opened it and yea.. I got accepted.

So many feelings and thoughts were rushing through my mind and I felt a bit of relief. I texted all of friends and my parents of course. After a lot of hugs and congratulation messages I started to feel sad. 

Being accepted meant leaving London and all my best friends really soon. But I think that there's also a reason behind it which I don't know yet. I will be fine though. That's all I need to know.

At the end of August I will fly back to Germany, back to my daily routine. Although I am really sad I am leaving, I catch myself sometimes having a thrill of anticipation. 

I hope you are alright. Take care, peeps! x